Hope

I am writing the blog for me because it helps to put my feelings into words about our experience with surrogacy, but I also hope that it helps other women realize that you can fight IF and win.

I have battled IF for 7 years now and even though I succeeded and had my daughter, it's still a part of me. Now that I have permanent IF, it will always be there. I don't know anyone else in real life who ever even thought about using a surrogate or being one. I don't have many people in my life who experienced infertility. IF is a hard place to be. It's hard to find people who get it and understand what you are going through. It's lonely. I wish I had blogged about my experience when I was trying to have Bella. If I can help one person realize surrogacy is an option for them and that there are wonderful surrogates like Buffy out there, I feel really good about myself. I wish I could have read things that showed real emotion of how infertility and surrogacy is.

This is definately the road less traveled, but such a rewarding one. And to think some people go their whole life never knowing the wonder of surrogacy. The miracle that occurs, well I wouldn't miss it for the world. I am so proud to be doing this, here on this journey. Buffy is more than our surrogate, she is a friend. She is exactly who I needed to be here with me. I am a better person because of her.